“Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? And one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.” (Matthew 10:29-31)
Life is unpredictable. It goes through seasons of mountains and valleys. For me, right now it’s a season of being in the valley. Six months ago, I had just received an email saying, “Congratulations! You are eligible to graduate from ....”
At the start of the year, I had my life somewhat planned out for what's ahead. I thought it was finally a relief to be able to finish university and to be honest it is, but I didn’t know I would be where I am today. That is having no job for six months, being absolutely broke because I have used up my savings and embarrassed as people constantly ask me what have I been up to but more than that, a burden on my family especially to my mum. Have you ever felt like such a failure, such an embarrassment? I’m supposed to be an adult right? but right now I am not going anywhere in this timeframe in life.
Soon, I had not realised that this has also affected my spiritual life and my relationship with God. You see at the beginning of the year, I committed to making this year different than last year’s one. I wanted to move forward in some areas that the Lord has shown me. I wanted to move forward financially and I also wanted to move forward with someone for our future.
However, in the last couple of weeks/months, it has been totally the opposite. Although a struggle, I’ve been asking the Lord to revive my heart. I desire nothing else but His presence in my life once again. As I was sipping my tea at 12 in the morning, meditating on some Bible verses for discipleship class, I reviewed one of the main points from the lesson, that is ‘God’s Word guides us today.’ I then asked myself, “How can this be applied in my life right now?”
This led me to the verse in Matthew 6:8.
“Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.” (Matthew 6:8)
I was reminded that the Lord already knows the things I need, even before I ask Him or tell Him about these things. He knows I need encouragement and strength. He knows I need His help in order to be the lady He wants me to be. He knows my faults, my shortcomings and my besetting sins. He knows my desire to please Him, to be more like Him. He knows I fail at these yet I need His grace and mercy at the same time. What a comfort to have a Father who knows the needs of His child!
I knew there was a verse about how the Lord takes care of birds and not a single one goes unnoticed in His sight. I really don’t like birds. I mean they’re not my number one choice of animal, but the lesson about them has made me appreciate how caring and big my God is. There must be hundreds and thousands of birds, who are of much lesser value than I am, yet the Lord knows every time one of them falls to the ground. How much more does He take note of what’s happening in my life? He knows the exact amount of hair on my head. Compare that to the 7 other billion people in this world! He knows the amount for every single human being!
I was comforted in the reality that He cares about me and I have never felt so important as much as I did tonight. I could not fathom His great love for me at this point. I may not be able to see what’s ahead of me but I know that the Lord is watching me. He’s already there and He knows just what I need.
All I can say is, "I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I know Who holds tomorrow."
I Know Who Holds Tomorrow
I don’t know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don’t borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don’t worry o’er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I’ll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.
Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.
I don’t know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I’m covered with His blood.
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